May 31, 2005 - 10:44 p.m.
Is This Living?
Ever feel like the world is moving in a slow reel? I don't know how else to explain it, there's a slightly dizzying and not altogether unpleasant feeling that comes along with this.
Crash is turning into pigeon... When I scratch his head, he coos...
I'm reading Lost right now and I've literally fallen into Winnie's world of multiple personalities. Hauntings, Identity, How do these take on some sort of personal significance? It discusses ghosts and an afterlife and also takes a look from a staunchly skeptical point of view.
I have come to realise by reading this book exactly how sharply I contradict myself when I look at the idea of an afterlife.
I fight and kick and scream madly to convince myself that there is so much as yet undiscovered and I know that there are many things we really don't know anything about. I desperately tell myself that we have an immortal soul that lasts beyond our mortal shells.
But some days that conviction feels empty. Not all the time - but often enough that I wonder if we'll ever really know without seeing the other side of things.
And from what I understand, the dead don't speak in ways we understand. Or ways most of us don't want to see.
You can take that anyway you like, from the analysis of someone's mortal remains to channeling a loved one's spirit... Death is something that always lurks around the corner. We try to avoid it in our every day lives.
Sometimes I think I am a little morbid - people don't like it when I bring up death and living as a conversational topic. They mostly balk at the death part of it.
Anyhow, I think Gregory Maguire thinks about death quite often as well. It seems to be a common theme in Wicked as well... the existence of a soul, an afterlife.
And the question is never answered, as in life.
