June 7, 2005 - 10:05 a.m.
Tired
I'm still getting used to my job and I'm really worried that I'm not hitting my targets. I'm extremely worried that I'm just not right for this job, funny, since I was so convinced during the interview that I was the person for the job.
I'm frustrated because I feel I should be much harsher than I have been so far. I should be less forgiving and more shrewd.
I'm certain these are things that will come in time, but for now I'm a nervous mess and I'm really worried. I'm trying to stop and put that thinking behind me. I want to leave my job at work. I don't want to bring this crap home.
I wish I was more patient with myself sometimes.
